I can't believe that it has already been an entire month that you've been gone. It feels like forever, and at the same time it feels like the blink of an eye.
Every day I miss you more and more. I feel like the pain will never go away. The pain of missing you so deeply.
I'm doing my very best, trying to take care of Mom and Lisa, they way you would want me to (be a big sister). I don't know if I'm doing things right or not. I hope so.
I wish you were here. I wish I could talk to you. Hear your voice. I wish I could have one more bear hug.
I miss you Daddy. I really REALLY miss you!! But I am so incredibly thankful that I even got you at all. You are the best Daddy in the whole entire world.
Can't wait to see you again.
one of my favorite things that my family used to do when i was growing up was 'sunday drives'. we'd all pack up in the car and drive as far north south east or west as we could and find some place new to explore. i'm sure that my daddy had a plan, but we didn't know it. it was an adventure! it was family time, it was spontaneous and exciting.
even now, as an adult, i'll jump in the car and just 'take a drive'. it's one of my favorite things to do. like, ever. it clears my head, and fills my heart.
right now, i'd really love to go for a drive. maybe...
2. Today I wish I was staying home creating something fun, like a mini-scrapbook or cupcakes .
6. Something I can never pass up at the grocery store is metro mint water .
i feel scared to blog because i don't want this to be a place of negativity and darkness. and right now, all i can see is darkness. it's surrounding me and taking me in. i don't want to be sad. i don't want to share my sadness, even though i know those who love me will lift me up. ugh. this whole thing is so weird.
i think i need a little time.
a little light.
a little inspiration.
so please, if you have any of that, send it on over. i would greatly appreciate it.
and please don't worry about me. i am a strong girl. i am my fathers daughter. and i will get through all this. i just thought it best to share with my readers where i am.
i will be back. hopefully sooner, than later.
2. The most surreal moment of my life was when my Daddy passed away. The entire experience from his shell to his beautiful funeral to burying him, it's hard for me to grasp that I just went through all that.
6. If I could choose one store to spend my life savings at, it would be oh goodness, I want to say DSW because of their shoe heaven, but I would say Macys. They have everything (including designers) and their shoe dept is nothing to joke about .