the three month mark...

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i knew this day would come. just like i know the six month mark will come. and the year mark will come.

three months since daddy went to heaven.

hard to believe. 

i'm not sure how i feel. it's only 10am... and i'm working on minimal sleep.

i'm sad. my heart is sad. that is probably to be expected. aside from sadness, i can feel the physical pain of missing my dad. wishing i could pick up the phone and call him. the small hope in my heart that he's going to walk through the door. weird that most days i grasp that he's gone, but some days i honest to God don't believe it. i am learning that it is all apart of the process. the process of grief and mourning. 

i am so incredibly grateful to have so many friends and family members that are understanding and supportive. i really appreciate your kind words here at my blog.

i really am trying not to be such a debbie-downer. but today, the honest truth is that i am sad. and i know thats okay. because after the rain comes a rainbow. 

okay that was cheesy. lol

things i am looking forward today:

-going to costco (shopping... even grocery shopping, makes me oh-so-happy)

-my sisters kids are staying the night (because she has to close, boo) and watching ELF with them all before bedtime.

-its payday which means i can finish up my christmas shopping. yay me!

-making more 3D snowflakes

-working on a special (crafty) gift for one of my kids

have a super awesome and productive day! (yep, i said productive!!! hehe)