To Be Honest...

I'm not feeling up to par today.

My heart aches so bad today. I miss my dad. 

It could be because in times of worldly disaster (Japan) I tend to get anxious and my dad can always calm me down.

It could be because the Good Guys Car Show is in town and that was the last car show my dad and I went to together. And since I have to drive right by the car show to get to work, every time I see a beautiful vintage car my chest feels like someone is sitting on top of it.

It could be because the PBR (Professional Bull Riders Rodeo) is also in town. Daddy loved watching and going to the rodeo. I can't imagine not sitting next to him watching our favorite riders.

It could be because this weekend will be my first wedding anniversary without him. He was always so good to give us a sweet card.

It could be because Tuesday will be 6 months since he's been gone.

It could be because it's Friday and I tend to miss him much more on Fridays, to the point that I actually cry every Friday on the drive home from work.

I'm sorry. I don't mean to be debbie downer. I just mean to be honest. 

It's just a down day for me. Thank you for understand. 
Wishing you a happy day and happy weekend!


Gina said...

You're always going to have sad days here & there and there's just no way around it. We never forget those we love.

Take care, know that I'm thinking of you & hopefully you feel better soon.

Tiffany said...

Thinking of you Jen~
There is no rhyme or reason to loss and to grief~
I wish I could give you a big hug!

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