thankful...

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This year I feel that it is important (for me) to point out what I am thankful for. This year, I have so much to be thankful for... I've never felt so thankful, and grateful for all the small things that I do have in my life. Don't worry, I'm not going to list everything-everything (like I am thankful to have running water in the house, and the gas heater turned on) lol, which I am thankful for... but here are the big ticket items...

1. God's Love.  I have felt the love of God more in the past two and a half months than I ever have (probably in my entire life). Nobody is perfect, and everyone is a sinner... but thankfully, in God's eyes we are perfect. I am thankful for His love, his grace, his gifts, and his blessings. Without God, I am nothing.

2.  My Daddy. This one is tough (and I am already crying). I miss my Daddy every second of every day since he's been gone. I am so incredibly thankful for every single second that I had him in my life. Every second. Even the ones where I was in trouble with him. Every single one. I am thankful to have such an amazing Daddy. A man who was (in my eyes) near perfect. He will always be with me. He will always be in my heart, and in my thoughts. And I am thankful (again, God's love) that one day we will be reunited in Heaven. I love you Daddy.

3.  My Family. I am thankful to be blessed with my children. I am thankful that God gave them to me, allowing me to be their momma, and give them all the love I have. I am thankful for my husband, who has had to literally pick me up off the floor when the pain of losing Daddy has become too much. Day in and day out this man has had to endure the process (and sometimes reprocusions) of grief and stress. I am thankful for my Mama. Every day, every hour, and just about every minute is a struggle for life, a struggle to live without Daddy by her side. I can not imagine how difficult that is. I am thankful she fights through her days because she loves us. I am thankful for my Sista. Without her I don't think I could survive all of this. She knows exactly how I feel, because she is going through it all too. I am thankful for her advice (even though she is younger, lol) and thankful that she is here with me, in my life every day. I am thankful for my nephews and niece. They bring me so much joy, and so much love, (and so much chaos) that it is nice to be able to love them like my own children. I am thankful to my in-laws, my aunts, my uncles, my cousins, my second cousins, my third cousins (we're Mexican... we're a big family. lol). The amount of love and support that they have shown me, and my family during this time of mourning has been powerful. My cup runneth over.

4. My Friends. I am so thankful. I have the most amazing friends in the world. Friends that have been there to do absolutely anything for me in this time of need. Friends that flew out, drove out, were there by my side the first minute they could get to me. Friends who let me cry to them on the phone, or in person. Friends who let me ramble on (I'm sure repetatively) about my pain and heartache. Friends who read my blog and send me support. Friends who call me, send me cards, send me emails. Friends who care far beyond what they should or what I would ever have thought. I am so thankful for each and every single friend. They help shine light into my life. Thank You.

I wish each and every one of you a very Thankful and very Happy Thanksgiving.

I love you all. xoxo